bleah

You know that feeling of utter and complete dispair? Thats wat im feeling right now...or atleast i was till 5 mins ago...until someone shoved a bit of sense into my head and told me to live my life one day at a time...im not usually the paranoid kind but lately ive been feeling that way...i know im the bindaas(dont care a damn) kinda girl but...sometimes...it just hits you...and when u want that non-carish attitude of yours to come out more than anything else in the world, it just doesnt.And then the paranoia just kicks in...Im so confused about where im going, what im going to do..i know im going to eventually do big things in my life but i have no clue when, where or what it is im going to do...and that feeling at times just starts to eat into you and you need a punching bag( as is wat this friend of mine is willing to pose as). I really need some time-out. Fine people have bigger issues, but this is my ISSUE. But only time can fix it......cuz i cant say, here and now, where im going to be a year from now.Another thing that really got me thinking is how when some people make an exit from your life, a fresh bunch make an entrance...and somehow...its all for the better...this venting out process really helps....sigh....