a tad better!

hellooooooooo....yes as u can see im a little happier with life now:):) i guess once u get into the mood of things its a little easier on you...finished off two exams....so dont have to look at another economics textbook for the rest of my liiiiiiiife!( until i have children n have to tutor them! gaaaaaaak!) :) I kicked ass in both papers!! so very very relieved and all that last minute cramming was totally worth it:) still have 4 more to go but wont lose hope! hehe had the best sleep everrrr last night! i technically woke up around 8 this morning but lazed around in bed till around 10 n that was a bloody good feeling:D considering i havent slept in something like 5 nights! :) now im baaack to my happy sunshiny life:Dwheeeeeeeeeeee!

see i want to be all happy n sunshiny like this again!!! whyyyy do i have to cram like this for an absolutely USELESS exam...i call it useless because it truely is....actually i shouldnt be blaming the exam...but bangalore university....this is how bad it gets...for instance last year, our answer papers were found floating through the corridors of the examination office in B.U. in water bacause of the monsoons!!!!!!! can believe how ridiculously DAFT these morons are! there were just stacks and stacks of papers lying on the ground waiting to be corrected!!! arrrrrrrrrgggggh ok venting big time....there's just so much to do and im not sure ill finish... i waaant my happy days back!!!!

insaaaaaaaane

seriously going insane.....have my finals in 5 days n i dont know much....pushed it till the last minute as usual....honestly losing my mind...i need to give this my all but i cant and i dont know why....so so messed....no point in whining about it but actually doing something about it....but im still so so scared.....my life just seems so uncertain....actually IT IS uncertain....i dont know whats in store for me in july....whether ill go back to the mundane life of college or whether ill work...i want to work...but i also owe an explanation to my folks for making that choice .... and right now i have nothing.....atleast not enough reasons for making this decision.....but right now i cant think about all that as much as it bothers me....i have this one obstacle in 5 days to work my way thru.....seriously should bury my nose into those dusty books....aaaarrrrggggh!