insaaaaaaaane

seriously going insane.....have my finals in 5 days n i dont know much....pushed it till the last minute as usual....honestly losing my mind...i need to give this my all but i cant and i dont know why....so so messed....no point in whining about it but actually doing something about it....but im still so so scared.....my life just seems so uncertain....actually IT IS uncertain....i dont know whats in store for me in july....whether ill go back to the mundane life of college or whether ill work...i want to work...but i also owe an explanation to my folks for making that choice .... and right now i have nothing.....atleast not enough reasons for making this decision.....but right now i cant think about all that as much as it bothers me....i have this one obstacle in 5 days to work my way thru.....seriously should bury my nose into those dusty books....aaaarrrrggggh!